I was planning to buy this cute silk kimono inspired blouse I saw @ Debenhams last Sunday but I had second thoughs since it was quite costly and of course the thing was im kinda doubtful if it will fit just right. I gained a lot these past few months from the original weight I had last January. Honestly it was quite deppressing since I was planning to lose some weight but instead a gained more. The worst part is I cant help but feel so uncomfortable everytime I look at myself in the mirror, as if Im staring at this ugly big fat unhappy lady.(sigh)
I did try to lose weight like a week or so of no rice at all only light snacks. And I did lose like 2kg the most, then comes the part that I reward myself. You see I follow the REWARD SYSTEM like for any goal I achieve I have to reward myself, its like a pat on the back for a job well done hehehe.. In my dieting course its for the KILOS I lose.. The reward means a sumptious dinner or snack only that the dinner or snack does not mean one time of course it has a repeat . And all the weight I lose comes back once more, only that sometimes it doubles the original weight I actually lose.
Also in between I find it hard to avoid good food.And my definition of good food is quite a list, its actually compose of foods that most diet Guru’s would advice anyone dieting to stay away from. But hey im just being realistic I love good food be it healthy or not.
One friend of mine adviced me that a succesful diet must have a set goal and time plan, like one should have a target weight to achieve and a time frame for it. I guess its was what I lack im my previous attempts. I lose weight without direction and time frame.Also that it should have the right motivation. Yeah I think I don’t have the right motivation for it. And also it must be in BLACK & WHITE – it should be put to writing.
So here it goes ….
MOTIVATION: to fit in a size 10 dress, to look good for myself and my other half.
GOAL : To lose 5kg
TIMEFRAME : 5 months
And so once again I’m back on track only that this time I hope to achieve my target weight. Im quite confident that ill do so that is if I don’t get pregnant in the process.
